I am still alive, didn't think that I could make it through such a horrific event ever happening in my life. Never thought I would have to bury my baby either. But here I am a year later still plugging away at life and trying to make the best of it as it is.
Things I have learned and gathered along the way.
I have a much closer relationship with God, I lean, I pray, I ask, and meditate on what he wants from me in this life.
My husband and I are so much closer and in a better place then we were at before Georgia. Honestly we were headed so far apart that I was starting to question whether or not we should be married. I love him so much, trust him more, depend on him and love being his wife and best friend.
I speak up about things a lot more now, not as I used to, I have a filter now yet I don't let moments pass by wasted. I try to gently correct, kind words to motivate and when I see an injustice I try to lovingly point the offender in the right direction.
I have an inner peace that was not there before. Don't get me wrong I struggle everyday with missing my daughter, I fight my emotional battle everyday but I know I am a mom now, I have a beautiful baby girl that I will have in a world without hate, anger, injustice and man's rule. She will know a world of peace and abundance, of love and family and that makes my heart soar!
Lastly, well I am sure there is more but for this post...
I have opened myself up to people and am developing friendships I thought I would never have. I have learned how to have and be a friend, I have learned how to accept friendship from others.
Josh is still unemployed, we have not got pregnant again, I still am unemployed. Things could be so much worse and we could be alone.
We have God, friends, food, and the future
Cheers...
